being emotion..

being emotion is just like a part of my life in moscow..
who can predict when is that 'emotion' things coming?
no one else..but..I CAN!!
i can! because i'm the one who being emotion...

so, friends,,
i hope u all won't mind when i'm in a 'low' mood!
i know everyone's knows that i'm the kind of cheerful person,
but friends, i think i'm not that cheerful..
and this is the truth, not a lie..
sometimes i do feel like crying out..
sometimes i do feel like want to talk to you all about my feelings..
and sometimes i do feel like want to keep it for myself..
i can keep quiet for a few days if i am emo-ing..
and sometimes a week..
so that i can calm myself up..

so..
not to worry about me..
i can take care of myself..
and dont ever ask me why when i'm 'emo-ing'..
i will always say nothing though there is something..
and once,
thanks for your caring..
you all are such a good friend.
and i knew it by heart!

life in moscow..

is been a month since i first departure from malaysia to a country which is unfamiliar to me..
everything here is new for me,
new friends, new roomates, new seniors..
so far, i haven't get into any troubles..
and this indeed is good for me!

in a foreign coutry, friends indeed is a best mate for u..
travellling along, cooking along, having fun together!
but sometimes, they are annoying too,,
you cannot deny that, because this is a fact!
sometimes..
i do feel i 'myself' being rude to my friend,
and sometimes it will be in an opposite way..
but still, you have to get along with them..
you got no choice!

everyone will change, who will not?
people change when they are in different environment,
different situation. different occasional..
even myself do change..
i learned how to cook!
i learned to be independence!
i learned to be social around!
i learn to make new friends!
what else?
i try to learn to not to talk so much,
not to joke so much,
and not to laugh so much!
but i cant!
because that is the real personality of mine!

last day in malaysia..

The Last Day of Mine in Malaysia!

still got 15hrs more to go,
and i will be leaving this country,
to a country which is very unfamiliar to me, RUSSIA!
what will happen to me there?
what will be waiting for me there?
is an unknow!
will be lots and tons of surprise!

is 2 degree in that country now!
the most will be -30 degree in winter!
can i stand it?
am i bringing enough of cloths?
am i bringing enough of food?
am i going to suffer there?
am i...
..going to miss my friends and families here...
is still an unknown

time to leave is really tough!
you have to decide many things!
you will think that you regret for making this choice!
but still..
..i will leave..
no other choices for me..
packing too!
u will have to decide what to bring,
and cannot overweight!
haiz..

friends too..
i will be lossing lots of friends here..
been knowing each others for years,
and i'm going to leave soon,
r u there waiting for me?
will u still remember me?
will u miss me?
are we going to meet again?
again, is an unknown!

families..
i got nothing to say about this..
it will be the most difficult for me!