等待

等待毕竟是残酷的。。
看着远在俄罗斯的同学门都不在线。。
猜想他们应该在上课吧！真的好像跟他们像以往那样大吵大闹的！
咳~已经不可能了！
现在的我只能通过网络的方式来得知他们的消息，显得有点无聊！
怀恋以前一起上学的时候！
怀恋以前一起煮饭的时候！
咳~过去毕竟已过去了！
就别想太多啦！
你们吖！也该上线陪我聊聊吧！
好想你们哦~

thanks friends..

a friendship that had just begin to fluorish..
i never thought it ended up so soon..
althought it was just a merely 3 months..
but the bonds that created between us..
is something that we cannot imagine..
is really something strong that holding us together!

if i were given a chance..

i will still choose to stay together with you all..

to study with you all..

to go to class with you all..

if i were given a chance..

i will still wants to meet up with you all somedays later..

having vacation with you all together..

because you all had given me such a sweet memories..

and till the last moments at the airport..

you all still accompanied me..

but all these are God's plans..

we cannot decide either..

but still..

i really glad..

i really glad that god had sent you all to my life!

you all are so wonderful!!

you all are awesome!!
remember what happended at the airport?
the tears that i falled..
is sincere from my heart..
because i never regret to know you all..
and i also believe that the tears that you falled..
is sincere from your heart too..
because we are true friend!

the memories that we had created together..
had became a past~
but 'they' will always remain in our heart..
just between us..
and i believe that..
and i always will..
and i purposely write a journal..
it's about my life in russia..
just to keep in mind that i have friends that always care about me!

for me..
you all are such a wonderful friends..
are lovely friends of mine..
thanks friends..

it's a day to be happy..^^..

is 20th!!

tyler first birthday in moscow!!

how do you feel, tyler?

after all we did to u!!

having fun after all?

suffer?

is ok la!

once a while!!

growing older is not a bad thing after all!!

your spiritually will become more mature!!

your thinking!!

your characteristic!!

but of course i prefer you stay childish!!

stay more playful!!

and so..

one thing i need to remind you,

i won't post any of your video up!!

but for them, i'm not sure!!

and one more thing is don't plan anything for my birthday!!

and you knew what does it means!!

i'm not looking forward to it!!

is 2 more days left!!

i need to think of these first before i can proceed toward it!!

ok?

keep smiling..^^

time..

it's been 2 month since i depart from malaysia..
and i still can't believe i'm here..
there is not much different here..
maybe i used to be independent,,
honestly,
i didn't feel homesick at all as my friends does..
haha!
may be this is one of the advantage of being independent all the times!
But...!!
the things i feel the differences is the weather!!
i like the weather here very very much!!
just because i'm a sweaty person?
it's a fact!
no one can change that!..^^

the other thing is that the tons of colloque!!
OMG!!
i can't stand it anymore!
a good result means what?
a good future?
better friends?
teacher's pet?
i don't know!!!
do i really need to sacrifice my sleep for it?
i think..
the answer will be 'YES'
no doubt!!!
no choice!!
and no objection!!
anatomy!!
i will in love in you as much as i can!!
and i will never forgive you for making me suffering that much!!

anyways, friends are always there!
i always believe this!
the sorrow and the joy!!
haha..^^
they will share with you..^^
as the time goes on,
you will find out that who is the 'friend'
that really care for you!!
the bunch of friends here!
i like it much!!
and ...........
let's fight together for our future!!..^^

being emotion..

being emotion is just like a part of my life in moscow..
who can predict when is that 'emotion' things coming?
no one else..but..I CAN!!
i can! because i'm the one who being emotion...

so, friends,,
i hope u all won't mind when i'm in a 'low' mood!
i know everyone's knows that i'm the kind of cheerful person,
but friends, i think i'm not that cheerful..
and this is the truth, not a lie..
sometimes i do feel like crying out..
sometimes i do feel like want to talk to you all about my feelings..
and sometimes i do feel like want to keep it for myself..
i can keep quiet for a few days if i am emo-ing..
and sometimes a week..
so that i can calm myself up..

so..
not to worry about me..
i can take care of myself..
and dont ever ask me why when i'm 'emo-ing'..
i will always say nothing though there is something..
and once,
thanks for your caring..
you all are such a good friend.
and i knew it by heart!

life in moscow..

is been a month since i first departure from malaysia to a country which is unfamiliar to me..
everything here is new for me,
new friends, new roomates, new seniors..
so far, i haven't get into any troubles..
and this indeed is good for me!

in a foreign coutry, friends indeed is a best mate for u..
travellling along, cooking along, having fun together!
but sometimes, they are annoying too,,
you cannot deny that, because this is a fact!
sometimes..
i do feel i 'myself' being rude to my friend,
and sometimes it will be in an opposite way..
but still, you have to get along with them..
you got no choice!

everyone will change, who will not?
people change when they are in different environment,
different situation. different occasional..
even myself do change..
i learned how to cook!
i learned to be independence!
i learned to be social around!
i learn to make new friends!
what else?
i try to learn to not to talk so much,
not to joke so much,
and not to laugh so much!
but i cant!
because that is the real personality of mine!

last day in malaysia..

The Last Day of Mine in Malaysia!

still got 15hrs more to go,
and i will be leaving this country,
to a country which is very unfamiliar to me, RUSSIA!
what will happen to me there?
what will be waiting for me there?
is an unknow!
will be lots and tons of surprise!

is 2 degree in that country now!
the most will be -30 degree in winter!
can i stand it?
am i bringing enough of cloths?
am i bringing enough of food?
am i going to suffer there?
am i...
..going to miss my friends and families here...
is still an unknown

time to leave is really tough!
you have to decide many things!
you will think that you regret for making this choice!
but still..
..i will leave..
no other choices for me..
packing too!
u will have to decide what to bring,
and cannot overweight!
haiz..

friends too..
i will be lossing lots of friends here..
been knowing each others for years,
and i'm going to leave soon,
r u there waiting for me?
will u still remember me?
will u miss me?
are we going to meet again?
again, is an unknown!

families..
i got nothing to say about this..
it will be the most difficult for me!