tyler..

to my dearest tyler:

just saw your blog...
and honestly i'm really being touched by what you wrote..
a friend that knows me by the heart..
a friend that knows what i like..
a friend that share my happiness and sorrow..
a friend that nice to gossip with..
a friend that even share my secret..
that is you...TYLER..
i have been with you 3 months..not too long and not too short..
and truely, you are the one who accompany me from the first to the last..
the friendship that we have..is something that cannot be express by words..
i appreciate this friendship and i know you will..
without a partner is not a big deal..
because i'm always there to support you..
without me to answer 'anatomy' with you?
you will be trained to be more confident in answering question!
without me to cook with you?
you will learned to be a better cook!
just to tell you that anything is possible..
don't always look down on yourself!
you are much more better than someone out there!
sometimes, i do think that you are smart!
and that is real..
but you always complain that we are better than you!
and that is not true!
because we all agree that you are better than us,
may be you just dont have enough luck on that particular day!
(what an explaination)
and honestly and truely, sincerely from my heart..
i love to have you as my friend!
thanks for being my friend!

等待

等待毕竟是残酷的。。
看着远在俄罗斯的同学门都不在线。。
猜想他们应该在上课吧！真的好像跟他们像以往那样大吵大闹的！
咳~已经不可能了！
现在的我只能通过网络的方式来得知他们的消息，显得有点无聊！
怀恋以前一起上学的时候！
怀恋以前一起煮饭的时候！
咳~过去毕竟已过去了！
就别想太多啦！
你们吖！也该上线陪我聊聊吧！
好想你们哦~

thanks friends..

a friendship that had just begin to fluorish..
i never thought it ended up so soon..
althought it was just a merely 3 months..
but the bonds that created between us..
is something that we cannot imagine..
is really something strong that holding us together!

if i were given a chance..

i will still choose to stay together with you all..

to study with you all..

to go to class with you all..

if i were given a chance..

i will still wants to meet up with you all somedays later..

having vacation with you all together..

because you all had given me such a sweet memories..

and till the last moments at the airport..

you all still accompanied me..

but all these are God's plans..

we cannot decide either..

but still..

i really glad..

i really glad that god had sent you all to my life!

you all are so wonderful!!

you all are awesome!!
remember what happended at the airport?
the tears that i falled..
is sincere from my heart..
because i never regret to know you all..
and i also believe that the tears that you falled..
is sincere from your heart too..
because we are true friend!

the memories that we had created together..
had became a past~
but 'they' will always remain in our heart..
just between us..
and i believe that..
and i always will..
and i purposely write a journal..
it's about my life in russia..
just to keep in mind that i have friends that always care about me!

for me..
you all are such a wonderful friends..
are lovely friends of mine..
thanks friends..

it's a day to be happy..^^..

is 20th!!

tyler first birthday in moscow!!

how do you feel, tyler?

after all we did to u!!

having fun after all?

suffer?

is ok la!

once a while!!

growing older is not a bad thing after all!!

your spiritually will become more mature!!

your thinking!!

your characteristic!!

but of course i prefer you stay childish!!

stay more playful!!

and so..

one thing i need to remind you,

i won't post any of your video up!!

but for them, i'm not sure!!

and one more thing is don't plan anything for my birthday!!

and you knew what does it means!!

i'm not looking forward to it!!

is 2 more days left!!

i need to think of these first before i can proceed toward it!!

ok?

keep smiling..^^

time..

it's been 2 month since i depart from malaysia..
and i still can't believe i'm here..
there is not much different here..
maybe i used to be independent,,
honestly,
i didn't feel homesick at all as my friends does..
haha!
may be this is one of the advantage of being independent all the times!
But...!!
the things i feel the differences is the weather!!
i like the weather here very very much!!
just because i'm a sweaty person?
it's a fact!
no one can change that!..^^

the other thing is that the tons of colloque!!
OMG!!
i can't stand it anymore!
a good result means what?
a good future?
better friends?
teacher's pet?
i don't know!!!
do i really need to sacrifice my sleep for it?
i think..
the answer will be 'YES'
no doubt!!!
no choice!!
and no objection!!
anatomy!!
i will in love in you as much as i can!!
and i will never forgive you for making me suffering that much!!

anyways, friends are always there!
i always believe this!
the sorrow and the joy!!
haha..^^
they will share with you..^^
as the time goes on,
you will find out that who is the 'friend'
that really care for you!!
the bunch of friends here!
i like it much!!
and ...........
let's fight together for our future!!..^^

being emotion..

being emotion is just like a part of my life in moscow..
who can predict when is that 'emotion' things coming?
no one else..but..I CAN!!
i can! because i'm the one who being emotion...

so, friends,,
i hope u all won't mind when i'm in a 'low' mood!
i know everyone's knows that i'm the kind of cheerful person,
but friends, i think i'm not that cheerful..
and this is the truth, not a lie..
sometimes i do feel like crying out..
sometimes i do feel like want to talk to you all about my feelings..
and sometimes i do feel like want to keep it for myself..
i can keep quiet for a few days if i am emo-ing..
and sometimes a week..
so that i can calm myself up..

so..
not to worry about me..
i can take care of myself..
and dont ever ask me why when i'm 'emo-ing'..
i will always say nothing though there is something..
and once,
thanks for your caring..
you all are such a good friend.
and i knew it by heart!

life in moscow..

is been a month since i first departure from malaysia to a country which is unfamiliar to me..
everything here is new for me,
new friends, new roomates, new seniors..
so far, i haven't get into any troubles..
and this indeed is good for me!

in a foreign coutry, friends indeed is a best mate for u..
travellling along, cooking along, having fun together!
but sometimes, they are annoying too,,
you cannot deny that, because this is a fact!
sometimes..
i do feel i 'myself' being rude to my friend,
and sometimes it will be in an opposite way..
but still, you have to get along with them..
you got no choice!

everyone will change, who will not?
people change when they are in different environment,
different situation. different occasional..
even myself do change..
i learned how to cook!
i learned to be independence!
i learned to be social around!
i learn to make new friends!
what else?
i try to learn to not to talk so much,
not to joke so much,
and not to laugh so much!
but i cant!
because that is the real personality of mine!